18 Each day one ox, six choice sheep and some poultry were prepared for me, and every ten days an abundant supply of wine of all kinds. In spite of all this, I never demanded the food allotted to the governor, because the demands were heavy on these people.
At this point in our lives Gina and I have been greatly blessed with resources and we try to be generous as well. Nehemiah's behavior illustrates the kind of person I want to be, freely giving to those in need. But beyond that recognizing that the demands on other people are heavier than I can imagine.
As we continue our fast today, I am praying for Rich, DeLynn and their girls. God I don't understand why these things happen. I am praying that you give Rich strength during this time and that you guard his heart and those of their daughters. I pray you show Todd and Kim how to be there for this family as the demands on them are greater than anything we can imagine. God wrap your arms around this family now! they need you more than ever.
I am also praying that you will help me find a way to connect with Jeff and Amanda to help them find you and develop a relationship with you. Especially as they consider having a family. Help me not be bitter towards them but instead full of love. I struggle with their behavior and I let it impact mine towards them...take this away from me and let me focus on being a tool for you to connect with them.
I'm sure your friends are financially sound, but in the event during this time there is something Gina and I can do for them please let us know. We could buy a plane ticket to get someone to them or help them get home.
I pray for the hurt you are feeling too and that God can ease your pain and work through you and your special way of building relationships with people. He has given you this gift and I sense Him using it now.
your brother in Christ,
knut
I'm finding myself in a very strange position today.
ReplyDeleteDelynn died late last night. I'm having trouble working through it. Especially in the midst of my fast.
I'm working hard to humble myself before God......to bask in his awesomeness.....and at the same time I'm a little angry with him for taking Delynn away from my friend.
I can undestand Jeff's viewpoint. For him, at the age he was....losing his hero, in your dad, must have made him really angry toward God.
My focus has now shifted from Delynn, to Rich and his 2 little girls, and to Jeff and Amanda.
These 2 things are now linked in my mind.
peace
tp